marinas-roses

if you want to tortue me just make me listen to our songs and I'll pray to make it stop if you want to stab me just use all our pictures instead of a knife if you want to cut me repeat all the things he always used to tell me and if you want to kill me just tell me the truth

when I sit here in the grass letting the sun shine down at me being surrounded by flowers and butterflies why do I still suffer? when I smile at them laughing about some jokes being with people who love me why do I still feel my aching heart? when I get tired lying in my bed feeling warm and confortable why can't I escape the pain? when I listen to a song that used to make me happy reminding me of good times why am I crying out my soul? When my dreams come true when I think of things I've always wanted why does it still tear me apart? when everything is alright when life goes on without your love when nothing is going to

One. „What are you doing?" „Counting butterflies." Two. „Are you okay?" „Of course. I'm with you." „There's another one." Three. „I know I'm freaky." „You're my best friend." Eleven. „Do I look okay?" „You look beautiful." „Oh. Thank you." Twelve. „What's wrong? You really do." „Thanks." Twenty-two. „What's wrong?" „I don't know..." „Tell me." Twenty-three. „It's nothing." „Talk to me. Please." „Everything seems so useless..." Thirty-one. „How are you today?" „Don't know..." „I brought you some ice cream."

 You used to call me to hear my voice. I could almost feel how you smiled somewhere out there with your mobile on your ear. I want to call you just to hear your voice But I am not sure about your smile. I want to talk to you And I wonder if you feel the same. You used to look at me like I was some kind of angel, a fantasy, a dream in your world I could feel your love every second around us. My eyes follow every move you make, your lips, your hands, your laughter. Every moment I look at you I feel my love for you running through my body. I wonder if you feel the same. You used to miss me when we were apart, thinking of me, wo

 So here we were, lying side by side. He took my hand and I pressed it firmly, scared of this moment crumbling to dust between my fingers. I didn't look at him, just stared at the starry sky above us. So many stars. We had done so much, planned so much. Once you've seen the first one you see all the other ones. But we've never watched the stars together. Then you realise that the sky is full of thousands of sparkling points. We didn't speak, didn't look away. It could be over any time. Neither of us wanted to think about us going separate ways at the end of this night.

 I would lie if I said I didn't see it coming. I did. One leaf after the other is falling, one letter after the other is written and the first footsteps appear in the snow. You'll never change, and so I won't. Today we agree that you should go, tomorrow I'll watch you silent. You'll know I want you back. I'll know you'll listen to me. The only reason I listen to French music is that I don't understand everything. Sometimes I fall in love with a song, but then I notice the lyrics and if they don't fit to my life I can't stand them anymore. So I listen to French music. Anything I'm not able to understand isn't able to disappoi

"Hello." "Hello. Are you doing well?" Hello, do you miss me? "Yes, I do, and you?" "Mee too." I miss you so much. "Good to hear. What are you doing in your holidays?" "I have to work a lot, it's really stressful." Everyday seems so empty without you, all I can think about is you. "Oh, I know how you feel; I'm in the same situation." "We should relax and try not to think about it the whole time." Can't you just forgive me? "I can't. It's so hard to forget." "What are your friends thinking about it?" I'm so sorry. Would you even listen to me if I told you? "I don't know." "Mine say I neglect them." I still love you. "Do you?"

In biology lesson we were taught about why some animals can't propagate. One reason can be spatial separation. It's when they just can't meet each other because they are in different places. That physically and mentally distance between us is killing me. It feels like there is a wall that prevents us from loving, sharing a touch or a smile. Maybe that's why we couldn't be together. Another reason is behavioural isolation and it means that some animals are similar but they don't attract each other. Do you remember the first time we met? You were one of those charming, confident and mysterious guys (almost) every girl was falling for. I was

August And even if I hate routines I loved our midnight-conversations. We talked endlessly until my teapot of mint-tea was finished and we decided to go to bed. Every day meant a new day with you and so I tried to fall asleep fast after I listened to my favourite song. July I'm tired of the routine. The mint tea doesn't taste like mint tea anymore, it tastes grey and bland. I turn on my favourite song, but after only a few seconds I turn it off again. I can't hear those words and this melody anymore. I decide to go to bed and I wonder what I will be even waking up for. September Summer comes to an end I don't cry about. With you by m

 I'm not that kind of girl. There's something in me fighting against a wave of happiness when you hold me in front of the lake while the sun is rising. It's too cliché, maybe too perfect. I lie in your arms, it's the first time in my life I'm so close to anyone, full of feelings I don't fight back. I lie in your arms, in your warm bed and search for the right words, stronger than love. I want to tell you how full I am, I want to tell you that I'm thinking about me exploding because of the feelings and the luck in me. I love you. I need you. I want you. When I tell you you're just smiling, your eyes are sparkling. Don't spar